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近くの知らない場所 -Stranger places nearby 2020.03.31

こんにちは！

ドイツから帰国して、こんな状況だということもあり、外出はなるべく人のいない時間に食料を買いに行くくらいにしています。
YouTubeをアップしていることもあり、せっかくならと誰もいない家の前の公園で撮影したり、「家の周りで人がいなくて静かで綺麗なところ」を見つけるのが得意になってきました。

すると以外にも、家の近くに落ち着く場所がこんなにもあったか！と小さな発見をしては楽しんでいます。

こんな時だからこそ、開拓できた「ちいさな生活」を心地よくする工夫。

こうして、今できることを小さく楽しむことが今とっても大事にかんじています。

今の状況は長丁場になるかもしれないから。少しでも早くウイルスに怯えず暮らせるように、そしてこの瞬間も耐えるだけにならないように、こんな時だからこそいつも通り「今をちょっと楽しくすること」を真剣にやりたいです。

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Hello!

Since I came back from Germany, I've been going out to buy food when there are no people around as much as possible.
Since I've been posting my YouTube videos, I've become good at taking pictures in the park in front of my house and finding "quiet and beautiful places around the house where there are no people".

Then, unexpectedly, there were so many places to settle down close to home! I enjoy making small discoveries with them.

It is precisely because of times like these that we have been able to pioneer a "small life" that can be made comfortable.

In this way, I think it's very important to enjoy what I can do now in a small way.

Because right now the situation could be a long one. I'd like to seriously do my usual "make the moment a little more enjoyable" in times like this so that I can live without being frightened by the virus as soon as possible, and so that I don't just endure this moment.

Rolf Movement w/Marisol IN ENGLISH 2020.03.29

色々な人に読んでもらいたいと思い英語版も載せます。ところどころヘタッピですが皆さんのイマジネーションでどうか伝わりますように！
I'm posting the English version of the blog in hopes that many people will read it. I know I'm a bit of a mess, but I hope your imagination can get the idea across!

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2020.03.11
I had my fourth and second Rolfing session since I moved to Germany.
Marisol Valente from Brazil, who will be assisting me in the movement classes during the training period.
Marisol's presence was pretty significant because she and Rita, our movement instructor, were watching us closely during our training up until yesterday, and she made sure we felt comfortable in the class. She is a beautiful person with a world as big as the universe.

During the training period, I was told that I could take an assistant session if I wanted to, so I took it.
After talking to her, she offered me a session that was a mix of Rolfing and Rolf Movement.

Marisol looked at my body and noticed that my vertebrae were moving largely in the opposite direction of my breathing, which she improved with the Rolf Movement.I thought movement would be like walking or learning how to move in everyday movements, but she put her fingers on my spine and it was like my body was learning a new breathing movement as I repeated my natural breathing and it was very quiet lying on the table.

She also noticed my quirks in capturing "relationships" and found that they connected with my body patterns and hindered my coordination.
When I feel like I need space in my environment or with others, I'm sorry to the other person that I'm hurting them if I keep them away from me. I had a habit of trying to keep my distance by shrinking myself down. However, the smaller you make yourself, the more space you lose, and the more stuffy you become.

During the session, in one of the works, I lay on my back with one foot on the table and played with my hands, using the skin sensation of my feet and the skin sensation of Marisol and my hands together, and then when I felt satisfied, I pushed Marisol's hand away. When I pressed her hand, I somehow felt like I was treating her very roughly, and I didn't feel comfortable, so I told her that, and Marisol said

"It's you and me and the relationship. You're not driving me away, you're just changing the relationship, so you and I won't change a thing."

She told me. I realized that when I push her hand, I'm catching her as if I'm pushing her.And when I wasn't comfortable pressing my hands, my body's continueity (connection) was also severed.

Afterwards, I was able to press her hand effortlessly with the stability of my own body, feeling that I didn't need her but the "relationship".

When I got up from the table after the session, my spine, hip, sternum, and everything else felt so much better, and the space between my pelvis and ribs was created (there wasn't enough space before the session). Even when I touched my spine myself, I could clearly see that the lines had changed.

I had no idea that today's session would lead to a "relationship", but it was a session where I felt a strong connection between my thought patterns and the structure of my body.

Movement w/ Rita Geirola IN ENGLISH 2020.03.28

色々な人に読んでもらいたいと思い英語版も載せます。ところどころヘタッピですが皆さんのイマジネーションでどうか伝わりますように！
I'm posting the English version of the blog in hopes that many people will read it. I know I'm a bit of a mess, but I hope your imagination can get the idea across!

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2020.03.17
It's been a few days since my four-day movement class ended, but I'll leave this with my thoughts.

On the first day, the first thing I did was paint a portrait. Some of them are like characters, some have delicate touches, some have no feet, some have ground, some have big faces, and so on.

In the classes that followed, we always got to the training room about 10 minutes before class and everyone had time to do what they needed to do right now. Some do yoga, some meditate, some stretch, some look out the window at the distant mountains, some walk... Time to listen to your body for what you need in the moment, not habitual movements. Then, with a quiet space, we moved into the class.
And it was so refreshing to see everyone in the class asking all sorts of questions and then the class for us seemed to progress from there.

Particularly impressive was the breathing work. Touching my partner's body on the table, use your hands to draw out the breath of your partner. It's not about pushing or pulling, it's about "just feeling my partner's body" as a sensation, and my partner's body will start to respond from the part I’m touching, and you'll be able to take a big breath. What a wonderful job Rolfing is, to see people breathing with such a sense of comfort.

Come to think of it, I don't think there are many active classes in Japan where you can speak up and ask questions. Basically, do you have a question? I feel that when I am asked, "What's wrong with you?
Here, we have simple questions, sometimes we talk a lot, and discussions go on for an hour and a half instead of a prepared class. Even if there is a lot of common sense and discomfort, the things we have been putting in and various values are changing.

By the way, in Japan, Benz is a luxury car, but here, Toyota is a luxury car. Things are different, but they change where the value of the same thing is. There were so many things like that that made me laugh at how much I used to care about the little things.

Like the class I'm in now, the story goes against the grain.
However, I feel that it is very important for people to proceed independently with their own ideas in this way.

What we can learn from the movement. It's not about right or wrong, it's about "How do you feel about it? That feeling is the answer. Some people had 37 spines, while others had 18. And it's different for everyone, and that's fine. From there, you start asking yourself, "So, how many spines do you actually have? So I counted the spines of the human model beside me and found out that there were 24 spines. If you do that, I'm sure you'll never forget how many spines you have.
If you only want the right answer, you can go to a bookstore or Google it. I came here because I wanted to meet an experience that went beyond that. It is nothing more than that.

Somehow, I ended up talking about the many things I felt during that period of time rather than the content of the class.
But I think what I came here to do is not to learn the right answer, but to experience it.

Anatomy w/Konrad Obermeier(Assistant: Susan Michel) 2020.03.19

４日間のアナトミークラスが終わりました。
自分の中に毎日色んなことが起きてそれはそれは凝縮された時間でした。

コニーは今まで会ってきたロルファーの方々から、とても素晴らしい先生だと聞いていたので、この４日間を心待ちにしていました。

彼のクラスでは主に骨、筋肉、神経など本当に色んな話をしてくれました。時には風船やヌードル(浮き輪)を使って、時にはテーブル(施術台)のシーツをつかって、自分が細胞になってみせたり若者の姿勢やお年寄りの姿勢や色んなモノマネをしてみせて、皆んながその身体の物語に惹きつけられるように話す彼の授業は、『こんなに勉強って楽しいのか！』ということ。

もちろん、言語の壁が標高1万キロくらいに感じてあぁ、私はもう国へ帰ります…。と途方に暮れてみたり、生命が吹き込まれた身体の素晴らしさに触れ見たことのなかった世界が一気に広がったり、本当に色々でした。(その前のムーブメントクラスもでしたが…)

ひとつ確実に言えるのは、この機会は自分の中のスイッチをONにする何かだったと思います。解剖学は逃げもしないし、たった今理解しなくても、帰っていくらでも学ぶことができる。
そして、ただ分厚い解剖学書と睨めっこするのではなく、その本が『生きたもの』になっている事にも本当に嬉しく感じます。
解剖学がただ単語を暗記するように眉間にシワを寄せるものではなく、テーブルに横たわるパートナーの身体は人体模型でもなく紛れもない生きた『人間』であること。

呼吸、そのたびに素晴らしいハーモニーで動く身体、水分を含んだ肌や臓器、相手との関係性、信頼感の元出会う身体と身体。

コロナや何やら色んなボーダーを越えて、今この瞬間に出会えた仲間や先生に感謝します。

緊急帰国。コロナ側から見た景色 2020.03.18

こんにちは。

突然ですが、日本に緊急帰国することとなりました。
理由はコロナの影響で、トレーニングが中止になってしまったからです。本当に本当に本当ーーーーに残念でなりませんが、今日までの３週間の出会いや経験、見たもの感じたこと、全てのことはまるで夢のように素晴らしい経験でした。

日本を出発する前から、コロナのこともあり行かない方が良いのでは…という事をいう人もいました。
色んな考え、意見を聞き、ニュースではアジア人が差別されているということも言われていました。そんな中、私は行くことを決めました。

デュッセルドルフへ着くと、昨年９月に日本で開催したロルフムーブメントWSで出会ったロルファーのイナさんが温かく迎えてくれ、彼女のお友達やお母さんも温かく受け入れてくれた事がうれしかったです。セッションを受けさせてもらったり、ロルフィングに出会い、共通の身体言語があるからこそ出来た会話を沢山して、年齢も性別も国も関係なく、好きなことを通して繋がれることって本当に素敵なことだと思いました。

その後、ミュンヘンへ移動。電車の乗換や慣れないことも沢山ありましたが、道ゆく人たち皆んな皆んな本当に親切でたくさんの人が笑顔で助けてくれました。
むしろ、「コンニチハ！」と嬉しそうに挨拶してくれる人もいました。ネガティヴなニュースとは全く違った、温かい人たちに戸惑いながらも、こうして親切にしてくれる人たちに対して「私は私の心地よいスタンスを保ち信じていよう」と思えました。

そして、トレーニング。コースが始まってすぐの時に、何気ない雑談の中で
「実は今回コロナのことで、アジアから来た人を迎えるのは嫌な人もいるかもしれないから、ここへ来て良いものかすごく悩んで心配してたんだ」
と仲間や先生に話すと「気にしていないから大丈夫だよ。」と言って先生が握手とハグをしてくれました。握手する事は今の私にはとても大きな意味を持つ事でした。仲間も皆んな素敵な人間性をもったひとたちで、差別どころか、むしろ遥々日本からやってきた私をリスペクトしてくれました。

それ以外にも、言語がどこまでついて行けるかなど言い出せばキリないけれど、ここへ来て絶対に良かったと言い切れます。
それくらい、濃く、色んな気持ちが詰まった期間でした。

この数日、一緒に学び過ごした仲間との絆も生まれたように感じます。
色んなボーダーを超え、相手の身体に触れ、言葉がなくてもこんなにコミュニケーションが取れるんだ。と気付きました。
最後に別れる時は、みんなとハグをして、涙を堪えて笑顔でお別れしました。またきっと何処かで会えることを願って。

これが日本語だったらもっと理解出来たのに！質問沢山したいのに！
もちろん、悔しい気持ちになることも沢山あったし部屋でひとり涙する時もあったけど、その涙は来なければ良かった…と過去へ向かうものではなく、未来に向けてこれからやっていきたい事を明確にしてくれたものでした。辛くたって、泣いたって、頭がキャパオーバーだって、

それでも「来れて嬉しい！もっと知りたい！」

って思えるって自分でいうのもなんですが本当にすごい！！！

今とこれからつくっていきたい未来のための、最高な３週間でした。